Just when I thought I'd got my head around all my symptoms......a new one has thrown me. My right forefinger tip has shrunk. It feels sore. The shape is pointy and tapered and even the nail has got smaller. I'm not sure if this is connected to the RA, the Raynaud's phenomenon or the possible overlap syndrome that my rheumatologist is still testing for. I am scared as I can't bear the thought of losing any more hand function. I'm feeling really fed up now and want to get off this roller-coaster. I feel really ill on the methotrexate, am struggling to stay at work, am in pain and just feel like crying...now I've written this I AM crying. I think it's all getting on top of me. Anyway...got that all off my chest. If anyone can offer wisdom on my weird finger I'd be grateful. Sorry to moan about a finger when some of you are in severe pain all over but it's the thought of what it signifies, and whether it will get worse that is really scaring me.
Best wishes to you all from Naomi.

Sorry Rose. There's ALWAYS something, isn't there. Hope you are both soon feeling much better.
Love Jeanxxxx

Thanks Jenni
I will think about having some counselling. I was offered it by my GP and also through my work in the NHS. So far I have been so busy sorting out the physical side of things that I haven't really attended to the emotional side. I have to come to terms with the loss of control and all the fear and uncertainty that will be with me for the rest of my life now that I have this horrible illness.
Naomi X

Hi Naomi,

It does take time to adjust to having this disease. Please think seriously about taking up the offer of counselling because who knows it just might help, it certainly won't do you any harm.

Anne x